I remember that day I sat in my psychiatrist’s office. I told him I was anxious, that I could feel myself floating above my body and it was hard to place myself back in it. I was scared and I didn’t understand what was happening to me. He explained that disassociation was a part of anxiety.
I identified the most with having anxiety. But there were times when I fell into depressive episodes. I felt listless, I slept too much, I didn’t want to get out of bed. Depression is sneaky and it convinces us not to try. I asked my psychiatrist about how depression factors into my life if I identify mostly with being anxious.
Then my doctor said something else to me. He said that depression and anxiety are two sides of a coin. I asked him what he meant by that. He said that these two things are often interrelated.
I noticed this to be true for myself. Often I will be anxious for a long period of time and when that adrenaline from anxiety fizzles out I feel depressed. Think about a car running out of gas; that is the analogy for how I feel after I exert all my anxious energy.
I didn’t want to associate myself with someone who lived with depression I’ve thought a lot about why this is, and what I have come to is this: anxiety (oddly enough) feels better. The reason I feel this way is that I see anxiety as a surplus of energy. Sometimes that influx of energy is uncomfortable, but nevertheless, it is adrenaline or energy.
Depression, on the other hand, can feel draining and exhausting. It’s difficult to live your life when life (quite frankly) doesn’t feel worth living. That’s why it can be helpful to talk with others who are experiencing depression if you’re in that head-space. A depression chat online is one way to reach out to other people who are experiencing clinical or situational depression.
There are many ways to combat depression when you’ve run out of steam from anxiety, but the most important thing to remember is that you are NOT alone. When you are feeling isolated and sad, remember there are people out there who feel the same way, and there is power in a community. When we find other people who mirror our pain, we can commiserate and heal, and that’s what we need as people living with mental healthissues – healing.